Yay Optimism

Well, things have been interesting, my right knee has been pretty poor lately, and im quite worried about it, so ive taken a big reduction in impact training, icing joints etc. But tbh, this couldnt have happened at a better time, and im not fussed about it. I felt weak in many areas again the other day, and even though i have progressed, i dont think its as much as it could be. I feel im weak in basic areas too, especially as my pushups are abysmal, but not in terms of my arms, but using my back and not arching it. I cant feel when im doing it, so im experimenting a lot with my camera and changing what i do to try and sort it out.

This has led me to do loads more conditioning at home, ive found things i can do everyday, out in my garden and more indoors if its raining, and im very determined to become stronger in areas ive identified as weak, which is a lot.

I was a bit of a grouchy..... goose today at the jam, but i wouldnt say for bad reasons, just because people were trying things that they were not ready for, and it's a re-occuring theme. So as i was reducing impact and trying to influence people to do less "big" things a bit i went barefeet, this also stopped me from doing anything I have banned myself from. I really enjoyed it and felt a big difference so im going to increase barefoot training a lot. My feet are now very dirty and i cant wash the mud off them. Good stuff.

P.s sorry i havent been on the last two bottom levels, i had a mock exam the next day last week.

But i will be there this week. yay!

Confidence

Well, the bottom level sessions have been carrying on for me and Kevin, but the numbers have slowly dwindled over time. This is ok, as we hear from many people such as Spence that they are keeping up conditioning and pushing themselves, good stuff.

Well this post was to set myself standards, and something i dont intend going back on. Im not going to give myself specific targets just yet, but im going to be increasing the amount of conditioning i do and the intensity of it. Ive been feeling inadequate in various areas, particularly my power to rate ratio, so im going to work on this lots, however i was pleased to notice at the Worldeide jam workshop i wasnt the first to collapse or give up mentally, and this has given me reason to highlight areas which im not too bad at in comparison. Just feeling a lot less things restricting me now, so i cna push myself, no more coursework, no more driving tests/ lessons now all is left is uni visits.

More posts in future when i figure out exactly how i want to do this.

Next, Bottom level has been great recently, regardless of small numbers, we've been making it as interesting as possible, with some excellent missions being set, and games played, without a feeling of competitive regime. Tis good! Conditioning at the sessions as felt rewarding more as well as knackering! good stuff.

Catch you later! Love dizzy kiss kiss